From ACH

What a crazy ride the last 5 days have been .. I saw my son laying on the ground having been run over by an ATV .. I have been in the St Eds emergency room .. the St Eds pediatric floor .. the St Eds ICU .. the back of an ambulance for a 2.5 hour drive to Arkansas Children's Hospital .. the ACH Intermediate floor and now we are finally settled into Room 3E12 .. a normal patient room in an Unbelievably Amazing Hospital .. Its been a rough week .. I think that may be putting it mildly but take it from me I've learned a few things about myself .. I've learned how long I can go without sleep and food before I start to break down .. I've learned that as much as I loved my husband before I never knew until now what an amazing dad he is to my boys .. I've seen the overflow of family and friends offering anything that they had to offer and realizing how blessed I am to have such amazing people in my life .. We had a scare Monday night .. Zach started complaining of abdominal pain and we found out that there was no scan of his belly done in the ER the night he was admitted .. When we insisted on a scan we found out that he had a bruised kidney and a lacerated spleen .. These organs, I've learned, can heal themselves but if something goes wrong they must come out .. It would be an emergency situation and after the ER "mishap" Sam and I decided that the hospital that we were in was not prepared well enough for an emergency concerning our boy .. After a long night in ICU we made the decision to have Zach transferred to Arkansas Children's Hospital .. He was transported by ambulance with me by his side .. Within 30 minutes of being here I knew that I had made the right decision .. We immediately saw a doctor .. Several of them actually .. We were inundated with nurses .. doctors and people who wanted to check this kid out .. It was a breath of fresh air into an overwhelming sad ordeal .. I rested .. For the first time since the accident .. I could rest .. I knew that my boy was in the best hands in the state and that I could finally rest .. I ate .. an entire meal .. by myself in the cafeteria .. but it was nice to feel a little normal again .. Only a mom who has sat by a hospital bed understands .. but any mom can relate .. This guy that everyone has poked and prodded for 5 days now .. is my baby boy .. he is my shining star .. he is the love of my life .. Finally .. after arriving at ACH I felt that someone else understood that and wanted nothing but to see my baby well again .. just as I did .. I will never ever be able to put into words all of my thoughts and feelings about what happened and what we have been through but I can honestly say that ACH is an answered prayer .. God knows that us moms need somewhere to rest and eat when our babies are sick .. so he gave us ACH .. Thank you Lord for this Blessing .. I logged out of here before I posted it because I thought I might have something else to say later .. I do :)  I heard my little guy laugh today .. It's been a a few days since I heard that .. I have felt a small lump in my throat all day long .. I am rested and fed and thinking .. Not sure if that's a good thing or not .. I can appreciate that laugh a little better today  .. With a clear mind I know that I almost lost that little laugh .. And with a clear mind I know that if I feel like crying that it is out relief and not fear .. I am ready to take my guys home and get back to our normal life .. I am ready to spend the rest of my days laughing with my kids .. My safe and healthy kids :)